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Today many thing happen suddenly..
I am kinda blur and I dono wat to write at here..
I feel tat I am out of my mind and I think  I will update it tomorrow...
So good nitez..
Good luck guy and all the best to someone...
byez

My last wish , last dinner last promise and the last date~~~

Alright at last 28 of oct it cames..
Is time for celebration..It been a long time plaining..
Hmmm
This morning wake up early and get ready to college..
I think is the last time i have to settle everything..
past few week is keep on lacking one thing..
That is today..
Although is an early celebration but i think is my last wish to her..
I after the class den straight go fetch her..
I din plan to buy any present becoz i don have to let her have memories on me..
So I go over a flower shop and buy some flower la..
easy and nice...
heheXxxx
Alright i dono wat her reaction becoz normally girls get flower is normal ba..hehez
after we when to mines to watch 'sorogate'
Tat movie is quite nice de but i feel getting tired..haha
we have some dessert tat is mango and banana pancake...
And the we go walk walk and last we dicide to eat steamboat and bbq..
Oh is her lastly wish food wo..dono le....
Ok just bring her over and fullfill her wish while I am still here..
Hmmm she enjoy eating a lot but me just like eat some and tat it..
She din eat before the mee wit egg tat in hokkien traditional alway do so..
When someone birthday , their parent or family member should cook for when birthday..
So I be the one only guy cook for her currently...haha
After dinner go pasar malam wit her fren along too..
Is a bit boring but at last I fullfill up everything I need to do...
my promise on her birthday celebration ,
my wish is to have a nice dinner ,
and the last date I have is already been done..
Since everything is been fullfill up..Is time for me to leave..
It been very tired , unhappy and suffering already..
time to leave away and tat it...
Good luck in her exam and hope her coming life are more happier..
I won meet her and contact wit her anymore...
Good byez and Good nitez..
Is the time to let it GO ~~~ byez..

Sick day...wahaha...

This morning wake up tat time my throat are totally not feeling well..
hmmm...
I think past few day talk to much to customer already..Hmmm
So wat to do is just keep on working only la..
Today have lunch wit sem , xian and jessie...
Oh so nice  becoz today is de last day roadshow..
I rmb at the evening i was talking to a customer..
Suddenly my throat getting very dry and pain..
OMG....
I feel like I going to cry out becoz it some pain which i cant say..
My tear slowly cover up my eeye..
Phew~~ so suffering a...SHIT SHIT SHIT!!!!
no people care and love de feeling are sad but no choice..
Single boy normally is like tat...
Er jessie got ask me get strepsil but I tihnk i don wan waste money...
Hmmm 2 day night din go out already...
Strange le...After work den come back home...hmmm
online chat wit fren... Oh thank yen for caring...haha
Hmmm I feel tat is quite good now...
I asking kelly out becoz her birthday coming..
But she see like strange de..
so nvm..we are frenz , so just have some short talk and like tat ba...haha
Oh yea, today my one good fren brithay...haha
Qihao...The napet guys wit favourite by many girls..
jealous him so but no choice , he not interest wit them and only his gf...haha
Alright wish him all the best
and
Myself getting recover soon becoz I don wan to get sick..
I must be fit enough to face everything...ngek ngek...
I cannot felt down and must cheer up on it..muahaha...
GOOD NITEZ...
Tat day for today..Don mention sad but just some short story..

Single Boy story 1...haha

Today is saturday...
Is working day again..haha
wake up early in the morning and get prepare...
Oh..when reach there I am fully heart to work..
Got a customer come over..
I start to talk from 10 something to 12 something about 1 pm..
We almost talk more than 3 hour to ask him sign up the broadband..
Oh dear.. I am almost dead meat ...
feel good he sign up wit me...phew..
If not i will jump to de wall and beng de la..haha
Okay.. today not really good becoz not good sales..
haiz..kesian la..
hmm at last I whole people is getting lighter
since the day i give up everything , i can fly already..
haha.. took some pict wit some promoter and miss DJ..haha
Although she not a good DJ but ok..quite funny and friendly..haha
Aiyo.. cant upload..so to bad la..
I will put it at facebook..haha
Hmmm today din go out for tea..
Eh SAT le...
Oh my god.. so guai sit at home online..haha
no choice , don have de feel ma..
so just come home online , chat wit fren ,
watch movie and check out some detail ba..haha
Ok la.. nothing much to update..
All about love is been end and everyone is just frenz..haha
Single is nice but when sitting down and think..
Actually I am very lonely...
hmmm
Good nitez...

Working Friday (23/10/09)

Oh today have to work roadshow again..
Is a nice place becoz it just only inside leisure mall...haha
wake up at the morning and wait to work..
reachs there tat time ,
 wao is nice and huge but the place we are put are suck..
Hmmm No choice la..
just follow order..
Today meet back some promoters again..
We forget each other but nvm , mix again..haha
there are some funny , nice cute and friendly..
Hmm not bad oh...haha
I have make some nice key chain..haha
Its cool yea..haha
Erm chit chat and work all tat la..
Aiyo..
 I talk wit customer for more than 1 hours..
bored la when she don wan sign..
BUT
I can wait...
so just wait she come back...
Hmmm since stop missing her den think back something..haha
innocent pass story...haha
Funny funky and crazy..haha
So just let it be...
Hmmm may be I don have the feel to dating currently..
haha its just awhile only okay..
Later come back de la...
I wan to work hard for money and study hard..
so tomorrow I need to call my group mate to discuss assignment...
I just now let a car kiss my butt...
car plate is WJH 2712 beng on it..
Ok stop aside and see...
Hmmm nothing much so let it be ba..
see his mabuk face also forget it la..
Hmmm very tired now..
Go sleep better la...
Oh my fren is working outside..
So kesian but wish she good luck
My family healthy and safety...haha
Nitez

Oh so lame de day...

ooppp many thing has happen upon me...
Hmmm yesterday rain damn heavy den no choice la..
 I have to run back home...
Whole body get wet and the first thing is I have to go bath la...HMmm
Today early morning wakes up...
oh I don feel like going but
 I have too becoz i don wan skip class..haha
Hmmm many thing has happen again at the whole day..
Shaun is desperate and sad about her loves one...
den is rain again ,
I have to share umbrella wit tan penny..
the funky girls, crazy one..
Haiz i also dono wat am i writing for today..
Just feel tat when I step in my cheras house den start feel emotional and moody..
oh man...
This is my house..
wat happen to me?????
At the evening I go eat dinner wit her becoz she is at home..
now she considere one of my nearest fren ba..
I am the only 10 best fren for her ,
may be...
becoz she say so, dono can belive or not de???
hahahaha
So just have dinner chit chat and i go home..
oh I really can put it away and treat her as fren...haha
tat good for me now....
I think nothing more on it ba...
She wanted to treat me for the second time but I rejected..
I know she is suffering and no money already ,
Haiz.. money bring problem to people de..
She now have to work for the few month and = zero de..
Hmmm wat I can do is keep on give her back the money..
She keep reject but i just don care and left it at table and force her to take..
ngek ngek...
Lastly she takes ,
and I send her to her working place..
Oh girls ,
good luck yea..haha
good feel are there but I already put the likes feel away..
so now we are kawan biasa tat can hang out always..haha
She tell me last week she go club when I say i don like girls go club..haha..
May be she is trying to tease me de feel on her.
but anyway ,
just fren hangin out for fun and food only..
no others already...haha
Alright ,
 many assignment , trips and event i have to work on..
So now wat I should do is manage my time well and be prepare...
good luck everyone and me...
Be prepare to finish up everything and go holiday..
Oh ya.. next fri we are going sunway lagoon ,
13 of nov to PD for 3 day and then ready for study and exam...haha
I think today wat i write here are totally not relevant but just say out somethng..
The main point i wan to write is not here yet but may be one day ba..haha
Take care...  end here~~~

Forgetting HER...(DAY 10) The last episode...

Alright today  I go wake up in the early morning to for CO K...
Hmm I join back volleyball...
OMG~~
Today class only 11 student and only 2 GUYS...
Me and one guy from SBS...
I been choosing became the leading team for everything..
Oh...Why me??
I was a experience captain so been choosen ba..
So just do warm up , help out sir and i think tat only ba..
so I think next week need to have their contact number and email add...
Haha..
for multi purpose also la..haha
Hmmm i call her on the evening to make sure she is ok wit the studies
but
She din ans the call or reply me..
Hmmm I think is an ending for me already...
Oh~~~ time to stop and enjoy...
Phew... at last i drop off everything and just a normal fren...
I think something happen to her and avoid me..
so nvm...hahahaha
Tats may be good for her and me...
Ngek ngek...
Today I check out my result...
WAO~~ so nervous la me...hmmm
Oh At last....I pass all my exam and no need to resit or retake..
thanks god...
some of my classmate are unfortunately fail some subject
Some of them thinking of withdraw and some is thinking to drop it..
Hmmm
Dono why suddenly i feel they saying this and i heart blank out..
I feel like missing dem all...
If many of them drop i also drop too...
Why I am thinking of all this????
Dono why feel like unhappy and sad feeling about them..
Haiz.. may be there are my bestie now...
Nothing to do so just wish them good luck and healthy ba...
Is already 10 day I keep writing de same title...
I feel tat today is a last day becoz I am totally left her away
Continue my living and my lifestyle..
Actually without anyone I also can still survive beside my family la..haha
We have some nice memories before such as nice , sweet , happy , fun and others la..
BUT,
all this is already a past for me and for her...
So just keep inside my heart forever..
So now currently is under studying and work schedule ba..
all about love and feeling just temporary put aside lo..
I can continue help her in exam but she is not in tat mood and concern..
So i just like nvm la..she need den she will look for me de la..
SO~~~ Good luck for her coming EXAM ba...
After today , I think will stop this story and look out new story...
Now wat can i do???
Just bless to her , my family safety and health ,
fren relationship keep on going and I have to work and study hard a!!!
Go Go Go everyone..Think of our future yea...hehezz
Good nitez

Forgetting HER...(DAY 9)

This morning wake up at 10 30 am..
Wao i set the alarm and make myself wake up early...
I now don wan to miss any class or anything for non reason..haha
i go to tbr eat wit yong and go for tutorial class..
Hmm today wat I quite understand wat the teacher is teaching..
I think is time to study hard..
Pass few day i work hard , so since is weekday den i have to study hard..
Hmmm after tat go meet her again...
Oh I think i can drop down the feeling on her and be fren..
She sad i think , crying but she din say anything..
i also thinking tat i shouldnt ask anything about her stuff..
Just diam diam sit at car and bring her to her house get some stuff..
Oh something happens again...
she keep on look at the window when come over to the car..
She sit at my car and her eye get red and wan to cry..
I knew tat she got some matters but i din ask at all..
Seeing her so fierce the face den i should avoid....
hmmm just teaching people study and din talk about others stuff..
I feel tat this also quite good de becoz everything is clean and clear..
phew... after tat she got to work and i sit alone there to online lo..
i call out seng to come over..
he wan to work so i offer him a celcom works..
hmm my fren ask me to be in charge person so can lead him and one malay girl...
haiz..i was thinking lo..should i accept it or not???
Alamak~~ aku dono le..
Should I do it or not...becoz in charge person..
but is very stress de if i work wit in charge person..
just like last time as digi de..
is good and nice but very stressful on sales all tat..
hmmm later on go down pay the bill and i go toilet..
Oh ya.. still rmb yesterday go toilet , the door not close well..
and a waitress at outside wait me and ask..
Why i go toilet din close de door..
I was like stund on it..
I saw her again when i wash my hand..
I was just like splash the water on her and she was like playing back..
so wat la her..feel like throw her into the swimming pool...
Today actually go to temple but fren not free.. so next time la..
see she like tat i just like feel like go temple pray for her , my sis to recover and my family health..
haiz nvm la... fri i only go pray la..haha
buy some to pray is ok de...
Alright i think is going to end soon and we are going to be only fren..haha
yea.. drop someone and everything is fine..
so carry on...haha
but still need to bless tat my family safety and health...
And then her result , GOOD LUCK ....
work hard , gambateh , and alway safety..haha
Ok la..good nitez

Forgetting HER...(DAY 8)

Last night i call her , but cant call in...
today morning , afternoon , evening call her also cant get..
OMG... wat happen??
hmm the whole day i been keep on thinking..
is it anything happen to her le??
she seldom like tat de wo...
last night no battery den ok la but won whole day ba..
Hmmm nothing i can do just wait lo..
The longer i wait the more and more i care...
Wat happen to her??
can anyone tell me ma??????
HAIZ!~~~
Worried die...
but i try to cover it..
watching funny video , keep on look for customer..
I think I need to work more harder even today my sales is quite ok...
Work hard study hard lastly only got chance to play hard...haha
right???
Hmm after work I alone nothing to do and ask stanley join me go for tea..
Opp...
I saw her..Hmm at last..she is save...
oh okay..but she seen like avoid me..
so no choice la,, don disturb people work la..haha
i just sit diam diam and enjoy my customer life ba..
chatting wit stanley about some games , video and works stuff...
oh is nice also got time to go out drink wit colleague...
hmmm she seen busy...
no time to talk de ba , so suan la..
Erm i think we suitable be fren but still in progress..
she is my kawan and i am her kawan..
wat we promise before all must do although is not chaser or anything..
I reach home have a short conversation , ask about her wat happen..
Phone got problem..
Oh nvm la , bf work as phone seller , buy new one la..haha
ok la..late la.. wan to sleep...
byez byez..
bless everyone happy,
I change my lifestyle ....
talk smoothly and nicely , polite and good manner...

Forgetting HER...(DAY 7)

Today I am totally tired le..
Last night sleep quite a bit late...hmmm
Wat am I thinking???'
Money? study ? parent ? fren ? her??
Hmm alright first thing is of course money , second is parent and last is someone..
haha
today my sales not really good but at least got few sales..
Hmmm go eat tat time feel like sms her but I think people is busy..
So just eat alone..
The casher and the waitress talk to me..haha
they ask me when end the event , why no come eat all tat la..
I was like SWT~~~
Hmmm is already been 7 days try to less look for her..
but wat is inside my heart??
Missing and missing..may be..
Financial got prob but being solve currently...
thank stanley my colleague brother..haha
Hmm he is a good guy in our office ...
Everything he also will help so is a good bro ba...haha
So many day din talk and find... how is she le??
still fine? enjoy her day? any prob??
Hmm i dono le...
how wo~~~~~~~
yea everyone telling me still can leave even without girls..
but dono why , i can like someone till so long...
hahahahahaha
magnectic force tat keep attract me ba...
hmmm last night saw her at cafe so like just ignore ...
oh in my heart now thinking..
how is she?? doing wat le?? sleep le ma??
Aiya.. dono a...
I also lazy write many thing already..
hope her bf is a best for her , treat her well and love her more ba..
hehe... as long seeing her is happily ,
i would be happy too although i am just a chasser..
blessing her , fren and family everyone are happy..
good nitez
hope tonight is a good nitez~~

Forgetting HER...(Day 6)

Last night i have a bad dream..
dream about something tat bad and makes me wake up at 5 something..
Oh man.. no choice have to sleep again...
when comes to 830 is time to wake up go work..
I reaches pandan indah at 930...
They seeing me like a dead body..
dono wat happen to me??
May be i am over tired ba..
Today I feel tat I needs mooney so i work damn hard...
I start to work hard from morning till night..
I got the most sales tat is 4 broadband and 2 hp mini..
My head only get 1..
I dono wat happen to me but i just keep on work hard ba..
My wallet just left below 40 buck..
40 BUCK...OMG i am dead...
Haiz.. now is just front of the month..
how could i stand till end????
Phew so no choice , i need to work more harder for tomorrow..
I must get a lot of sales as i can..
I today whole day din find her..
Just got a kind of feeling forcing myself not to look for her..
tat may be a good news ba..
I din take dinner becoz i not hungry at all...
HAIZ~~
wat happen le?? 3 something only eat breakfast..
den just now go drink..
Oh I din expect to see her working today..
SWt... why she is there but is okay..
i din look for her..
becoz i feel tat i shouldnt disturb people working..
i just play games , chit chat play fire and all tat la..
eh behind my fren tat table a girl which drink beers look like interest in us..haha
we keep on play and she keep on look over us..
I look over and she move away..haha so funny de girl..haha
Oh she is mabuk , being bring back by her fren..
haiz.. cant drink den don drink so much la..
later people 'wat' jor also dono how....hmmmm
biarkan orang la..haha
day 6 , wat i did is seldom talk to her and meet..
so i think is possible la..
meet is ok but just take people as fren ba..hnnnn
i reach home , bath and just send her a short message and tat all ba..
caring people is sure got de la.... hati gatal.. no choice..hehezz
ok la..I think more and more day den i will recover and forget about it..hehe
erm thanks to god for blessing me to have sales..
I would work hard , thanks for let me meet her again..haha
tat sound funny but still enjoy..
Bless her all the best on it..
eh dono why everyday pray for people...haha
bless my parent healthy ...so tat they won get sick..
me useless , i will work hard and study hard...
bless she , my family , fren and me live happily..haha
Oh ya~~
Today i saw a boy , age range around 12
wearing a superman pyjamis go to ampang point..haha
so damn funny de little boy..haha
goos nitez..

Forgetting HER...(Day 5)

Hmmm last night she was busy ing something in her working place..
so I just make a short conversation wit her...
After tat around 2 something i slept and she send me message..
I din reliase it and i see it this morning..
Today dono why so early wake up again...
Dono why nowaday keep on wake up early..
I sleep so late and can wake up so early..
wat happen to me????hmmm
Today afternoon she reply my message ...
after tat she got tell me saying tat she having biscuit ...
hunger for food..
I wish to date her out for lunch but i cant becoz i got class..
haiz may be is not my turn to ask her out ba...
Later on i go home , i call her and ask whre she is..
She is having tea wit her fren at old town..
Oh.. I was thinking ask her out but she is dated already..
so no choice la, alone got to CAFE QUAN to online drink ba...
Order and jasmine green tea and french fries...
Hmmm sitting alone also not something bad at all le...
Even though we got sms but later on i ask her don sms jor..
becoz later her fren will complaint...
later on i back and i saw her online at CC...
Tat time suddenly my mood turn bad becoz of financial , study and certain problem..
Phew... she say something makes me feel more sad about it..
On tat time i dono why will scold her saying why i got this kind of fren..
wat she say to me is making me more sad and worried..
Haiz may be people don understand my feeling ba..
Suan la.. people also pucking me already , why i wan to bang de wall...
I know I in totally good feel and likes her much , but wat to do..
nothing i can do right..
She ask me tomorrow either i free or not but i have to work..
No choice to teach her study becoz next wed she go exam...hmmm
Is to bad to know tat I cant help her out...haiz~~~
People don like me but i still helping people...
people not in feel and accept my offer ,
So just forget her and I think there are many more offers for me ma..
i know everyone would think how goods is she , my fren keep asking...
Hmmm may be for others nothing special but i feel tat she is special for me..
but since people are getting far and avoid , so i think is time to get off ...
I feel tat i am going to burst soon...
I need to go vacationso tat i can be alone and relaz..
i feel tat everything is rushing to me and i feel i can support...
Forget about now , facing the new challenge and be more cheerful ba..
Oh ya~~
Today first time make an annoucement at class..
first time to do tat , first time use so fluence english to speak to classmate..
OMG... cool man~~
but this is normaly for PR student right???haha
Ok la...I think nothing I can write already...
facing front and don looks back the past...
Many things is waiting for me...Go Go Go..
Good nitez...
Oh ya.. although i din look for her but i should pray too..
God thanks for giving chance to let us meet in the world ,
bless her do well in her exam and rmb wat i teach her..
bless she to be happy everyday ,
staying without problem and moody,
help her figure out her day and cure her skin problem,
lastly is bless her safety and healthy so she can work and got money..
Thanks...
Beside tat i have to say SORRY to my family member becoz 4 day i not being wit them..
Thank for the to cook me food today...
thanks mom , dad , sisters and myself ....
Nitez~~

Forgetting HER...(Day 4)

Today it been already day 4 oh..
Seen like nothing changes but just we less contact only..
Last night I suddenly feel to express my feeling on a sms...haha
A damn message...Hmm nvm.. It forever kept in my phone already..
I feel tat is really a suitable time to send wat I feel toward her..
So today morning wake up in the early morning to go for class..
It been quite a long time I din wake up such early to go class de la..
i think is time for me to BELAJAR!!!
Today learn many thing and I din skip class already..
OMG..Totally nice la the feeling when all fren are together in a class..
Hmmm today feeling is quite ok becoz the whole day are quite windy so ....
I din take off my jacket from the morning till evening..
Oh whole day I din sms her...
OMG~~ feel like strange le...
When on the way home i feel like calling her but suan la..
May be she has nothing to talk to me....
when the time i throw my phone on the table,
suddenly a message come from her...
She talk about yersterday the message i send..
I think she thinking me to NAIVE to being like tat...
Everything is cannot been so fast for it...
So on tat time I just feel like haiz..
deeply get a knife puck on it...
at the night , I send her a short normal caring message and she thank to me..
tat time I was totally strange tat she will send this kind of message..
Phew~~~
may be she is getting away from me...
I jus make a short conversation and the close ba...
At night asking about outing but seen tat she is not joining..
Is okay if she try to avoid me ba..
I think should be something good for her also if do so...
Just make a short conver again ,
she is still at her working place and i think she is doing something..
So just let it be and go to sleep la..
I think is something i would happy about her being enjoying her day..
May the god bless her skin sick would get better and live wit joy and happiness..
Hoping the one she wit now would give her extra care ,concern and love on her..
Good nitez~~

Forgetting her...(Day 3)

halo here is de third day i forgetting her..
Last night i get a message from her about today morning lunch..
WaO I was like feel so strange tat she will sms me wit it.
May be is lucky ba..
Today early morning was waken up by the next room ventalator noice..
Wa... shit la...
Rosak den don on la..make me wake up at the early morning la...
Shit!!!
Ok so i get prepare at the morning and just like go over and fetch her..
I reaches near her houes and wait for around half hour ...
She tell me need 15 minutes but is ok la...
Guy alway wait for girls one right???haha
Since a long time i din saw her so is quite happy to meet her back again..
Hmm I saw someone i like so is totally something happy...
I was trying to forget someone but i still doing tat..
We go to GOBI eat lunch , chit chat all tat...
my fren tell me when u are not chasing someone everything have to AA..
But I just dono why I cant say out to ask her pay ...
I was feel like shy about it becoz TILL NOW I still loving her..
Seeing her update her blog..
Is talk about her ex somemore...
Haiz~~
This time more die..
but wat I even lose it her ex and currently bf ...
Tat time I think of everything just let the god to fate ba..
I rmb I alway tell me fren...
I said "may be u have the chance , but doesnt mean u have the fate"
By hearing this ,she would the one i love the most but not the person i would owns it..
Hmmmm
After tat send her back and out and back again..
there are some story among it but I don think is neccessary to write...
Hmm bring her to some place where is intresting but she seen like don like it..
So just feel disappointed but is okay..
As long some place i feel relaz...
It already day 3 , wan can i do le????
People have bf , missing her ex , and busy..
I think tat , all this reason should let me forget it ba..
Right??
Missing people is something very suffering but no choice..
wat to do???
bukan saya punya den bukan saya punya..
How i like her i also have to steady and let it fate..
I in the pass already trying my best to give her happiness
but I think is useless for her becoz she seen like no feeling on it..
PHEW~~~~
Boh bian la..People heart are not included me...
let use a knife and puck in deeply into my heart and let the love blood to flow out..
So tat it flow it out and no more inside my heart for her..
Keeping the space for her i don think is useful already..
may be like her in a short term tiime but I feel tat I seen like 10 years more..
I think I know her well more den others , 'May be'
I treat her better den others more 'May be"
I knew tat she got feeling on me..'May be'
I know one day she will be wit me..."MAY BE" but "HOPE SO"....
Hmmm ok la.. forgetting her day 3 is just tat all ba..byez
Wish her can rub off her sad past and having the sweet days ba..
She should be happy becoz she have a bf ....
Thank god for it and may god bless her..
Nitez...

Forgetting HER...(Day 2)

Hmmm it been a second try to forget her...
Today I wake up early in the morning and rush to college for class..
I feel tat I have to start drop off everything and make sure alway attend de class..
I don wan like my past sem alway skip class and dono wat is teaching...
So by this sem I think i have to work more harder and chase up everything..
In this sem , I wit my classmate relationship are getting more closer..
Today majority of our class member are out together to have lunch..
Wao..first time being in a big geng out for food...haha
Today morning I din look for her is trying to avoid her but something turn bad..
At the evening , I call her and have a chit chat..
OMG sudah become a habit to chat wit her and sms everyday..
I wit my fren when to time square to watch movie and the movie name call
'SORORITY ROW'
This movie is quite nice and make me gone crazy about it at all...
I was like keep on sms wit her..
Hmm may be i just talking to a fren ba..i don dare to thinks about others..
After tat when on the way back ,I saw something very nice and intresting..
So i sms her and check it out wat colour she prefer..
So i think I can make something tat unpredictable and suprise for her..
I have the contact of the seller and I think i will call him soon...
Hmm I been sms wit her along the way back and till she works..
I feel tat I in still in feeling wit her but I think can start to hide a lot..
I know wanted to forget her is still a long path way for me to go..
But wat to do???
People have her future and I cant owns her as my future and  i wasnt choosen to be..
SO make it natural ba..
I din ask about her relationship anymore becoz I think I as am outsider, shouldnt know so much
If she willing to tell me den i ok and hear about it becoz I am good listener lai de...
Missing her , like her , admire her , thinking of her but all of this ...
all of this is happen to me now but I cant do it...
People got the love , care and everything from her BF...
So...Just need times to give up...
GO GO GO...
Gambateh...Try to give up and look for others ba...
Never being so deperate on girls..haha
Not in good mood now ...try to sleep ba..byezz

Forgetting HER....(Day 1)

Last night I get a message from her about something but I tat time was sleeping...
I call her tat time i was blur ing at all so i also dono wat we are talking at all..
Hmmm~~
Early morning ownself wake up and go to work..
yeah at last my sister is back but i just saw her a while only...
I mean last night...haha
Hmmm not really in working mood but no choice..
I have to work hard and study hard..
I din look for her in the morning at all.
try to stop sms her see wat will happen..
But no choice , suddenly at the evening I call her ...
I also forget wat we chat on tat time becoz
not in mood so ..........I also dono i talking wat...
Haiz...
No sales up to the evening le..
wah no mood jor lo , somemore din chat wit her..
I feel like sudah blank out..
OMG...
Missing her..how le????
Just let it be ba...talking wit colleague and try to cheer up...
At last... one customer sudah come to register wit me..
Tat time my mood quite ok la but later on i was sitting on the cupboard..
So no one can see me resting but suddenly I fall asleep already..
SWT~~~
Later on i go to have dinner..
wah today so early have dinner... No place to eat so i run to foodcourt..
Not in mood to makan but no choice la.. just eat ba..
While eating..
I saw 2 girl and a guy..
1 of the girl are keep on beating the guy and suddenly the guy give a punch to her..
I was like OMG...
Wat happen oh...Den de girl keep on beat and suddenly the guy kick her agian..
SO bad la de guy..where got peple like tat de...aiyo..girl le...
Den de other girl keep on pull them away but de girl keep on beat and pull de guy..
Haiz..
Wat world is tis..In front of so many people fighting..
MALU la ...huyo...
I call her again... swt~~
She sleeping...dono talking wat and I just like haiz close it ba..
Now more no mood seeing like tat...
This is de first day i wan to start forget her ...
I think need more time ba..
At around 7 something...
She call back!!
I goot stund to see her call me and no miss call...
I was like am I dreaming???
Ok chit chat wit her is nice ..
after finish chatting is happy .........haha
but later no mood again.. sei la me...
Keep on no mood....
Later on a foreigner customer come over..
he is wit her wife and daughter..
My fren get frustated to her so i help him serve..
after tat my fren comtinue and i play wit her daughter..
Is just a small little girl...I gave her a balloon...
her mom blow for her and i keep on wanted to take it away..
After tat i gave her a sweet tat i just bought when having dinner..
When the time they left , i wave to the little girl , she smile on me and wave back..
Tat time it show me tat in this world there are many joy and happiness....
Why don we pass it happily le?? right???
May be i like cute little girl and boy so everytime i play wit them..
my mood will getting better and much more happy...
may be I like children a lot...haha they bring me joyness...kekekeke
Hmmm is late..I think she must be working , So i shouldnt disturb her..
Somemore she got a bf tat will take care after her..
I think i can start to put it away and let the one should care upon her...
ok la.. hope can ba...
Forget about something and gain something new...
Tonight can sleep ba..Good nitez to me and HER...

Is time to end everything...

I been so long....
I am totally tired jor...
Every night cant sleep well , wake up early , bad mood , and easy get anger..
HAIZ~~
I very very tired jor..
Suan le ba..I think is time to let it go and don wan to bother about it la..
Although is a bit mm 'se dak' but no choice la...
Everything is being fate and not till we choose..
If now i don make a solution i afraid one day i will paint off...
HaHa...
Everything I write this word 'haha' actually am i tat happy??
Or i am just lie ing to the message and to myself..
I also dono...no matter sad or happy i will still write haha..
Hmmm
Yea is time to say good bye...Is time to stop...
So from today..
I think tat I should try to "bi kai " her better...
frenz is a good choice but i afraid i will break my own promise..
ARGH!
Just let i be natural ba...I think need time to stop findin people and sms..
Omce lost contact i think the feeling will lost and drop ba..
ALAMAk!!
I also dono ownself want how?? hou fan..
i got many prob a...
MONEY , TIME , COLLEGE  and RELATIONSHIP...
I wan to burst my tears out jor..
HAIZ..I going beh tahan jor... wit all this prob....
but saying out jor den i think can go sleep jor..
1 cow 2 cow 3 cow 4 cow 5 cow 6 cow 7 cow 8 cow 9 cow 10 cow
ZzZzZzzzZZzzz
Ok la..good nitez

Hmmm really bored about it la...

Last night after having tea , I go to my car wit ah seng and have a chit chat..
We talk a lot about ur pass relationship and nowadays keep on happening the thing la..
Hmmm~~
A lot of thing to chit chat about but while we chat up to around 1 am ,
A police bike pass through us and come kacau..haha
Ask us for IC , this and tat la...
SO ma Q fan one de la... huiyo..
This early in the morning have to wake up and go to work already..
OMG I am so tired la..
Last night like quite late sleep lo.. Hmmmm
Today whole day stomach not feeling well a...
Dono wat  happen to me...
Haiz..I lost my bluetooth..
OMG where did it go...
I extremely sad about but suddenly i rmb i like left it at the toliet..haha
Yea really left at the toilet and keep by the cleaner..
THANK YOU CLEANER~~~
Hmmm at the night , around 9 I suddenly feel totally moody...
Oh no..Why so moody..
Everyone who call me or talk to me tat time i was totally angry and scold at them..
Sorry yea..
not in good mood... but after tat when to mamak king wit ah seng..haha
We at there talk about long story again...ngek gnek
I receive a mms from kelly and is about stink taufu one..
Yer.. de smell is ok de but when i put into my mouth i will vomit de lo...
Yeeee dono how she eat lo..Yuik!!!
After finish talking i feel tired and wanted to go home lo...
U know wat??
We kena kacau by a police car.. I just step in the car and the police kacau..
Ask me turun , show Ic and Lisence , den ask thing and tat la..
Check whole body , wallet , my whole car all tat la..
Wat the !!!!!!
Need or not oh..I not a drugger okay..PLS!!!!
So wat de la... go out 2 night 2 night also kena checking..
Very lame de lo the police at there talk ham sap thing..
Wat make love wit her gf don wear condom all tat la... siao one!!
Haiz zhong zhi nowaday I am easily getting moody and angrry de la..
Sorry for those guy if suddenly kena shoot...hahahahaha
hmmm many thing sudah lepas , jadi saya pun kena sedar...haha
Sekarang hanya lihat hadapan , dah yang lalu biarkan lalu ba...haha
Ok la... sampai here la..byebye

Living In the WORLD~~

life is just a dream or can considere as a role playing for people...
Everything has happen upon me is considere a dream for me already...
Everything look real but actually is just a fake illusion only...
Wat i aspect are totally won appear towards us..
May be I think and thnk to much??
Hmmm nowaday feeling better , I can sleep well but since more than one week cant sleep
My face getting more acne already..
Haiz...
Why wan like tat wo...
Now I know many fren are caring and supportive beside me...
They helping me out but I feel tat ok la...
Drop of something and just let it natural ...right??haha
Just now finsih having tea , I wit seng have a chat my car..
I was lying on my car chit chatting and suddenly...
A police bike come over and wanted to check us..
HAHAHAHA~~
We are not afraid at all and just give them our ic ba..
After checking he give back our ic and just go bac...haha
I chat a lot of thing wit seng ...
It make my life feel better lo... feel everything has drop off...haha
Old the don go new de can come de wo..haha
drop it la..haha

To kellyan...

kelly ,
      It been a short time i been start to like u deeply...I know tat we are from a different world de people and we are doing the different things. The day I saw u , u start to bright up my life ,everyday the image of ur face poping up on my mind, I start to know u , I feel like wan live wit u , care on u....On tat time I feel like to have a love sweet story upon you...
  But unfortunately , U are owned by someone... Hmmm upon hearing the news I start to feel sad about it... I know tat nothing I can be done for it but just standing behind upon you to take care after u...
Know tat u don have much fren and having a lot of unpredictable problems , I willing to lend u my shoulder to cry upon and my ears to listen all ur problem...
The day i have tea wit u , u start to cry becoz of family prob , the next time we have dinner u start to face prob , the day we went out u have the prob wit ur bf......
I feel tat u are totally stress and up sad about all this..
Seing u wit all this prob , I feel tat I should be the only frens and not the only man for you...
I think i stop interferring in ur matter, but I just wan to be a ordinary fren to take care upon u...
HaHaHaHaHa~~~
I will treat u as good as a girl fren but I won dare to fall in love wit u...
So u ma very "Xing Fu'....haha
Anything u share and talk to me make me feel tat u are pity girl...
tell ur bf don jealous me becoz I am just a joker in all my fren..
In my past blog i got written it out my own prob... I am not anybody to anyone..
For me is just a man behind de wall... everytime someone need me the look for me
but after finish they will throw me away again...
So even u can do tat to me becoz I don mind of beeing a 'PATUNG' to my frenz..
I use to live lonely in my life , have a stick of cigratte when I am stress and shout out loud when i am angry..
Thank you for giving me a non smoking cigrattes box and ask me not to smoke...
I din smoke for a quite a long time already...Thank for u giving support on me for tat..haha haha
Although we now kawan , but I promise give u a nice birthday tat is my promise...
So u must rmb 28/10/2009...tat our deal.. 18 years the first time u will get a nice day for u...
I also talk till mm la kang de thing de..haha ok bye.. i also dono wat i am talking...

Thank you..

Yea i finally understand about it already...
Thanks you yea...
Since u write out all is prob, so I am thanking u for all this..
U are totally good to say it...
May be i am not a good one and a bastard for it..
I think this will be more better for u right now...RIGHT??
Suprise~~ I don need a suprise and I just need a people who cares me...
But since u wrote it out , ok ~~ I found 1 really care me a lot after breaking...
No matter wat happen she still standing beside me and be wit me..
Have u???
NVM is okay..
I take it everything if u feel tat i have wrong for you...
U know the meaning stupid right?? just like the first time we together...
Yea i admit i have many relationship before , but did u know wat really happen among us...hahahaha
I think u forever won know and think tat will happen..
I won be wit people and treat people as good fren now becoz i feel tat if is 'fate' to be together den forever also together..
If I am not the one, Forever i still can have anyone i like..
Hmmm u are to naive in something...
This world everyone is just playing a role play only...
No one is we can know is true or fake...
wat are one people thinking..
but thanks u saying all ur hate...

SaMe SaMe and LaMe LaMe~~

Halo today is 6/10 of 2009 nine and is a warm and hot tues..
Today morning is a totally lame morning becoz I have nothing to do and no class at all...
Alamak~~
Come on la man...Why my life so lame and miserable de???
I wan to play but nothing to play , I wan to go out but no place to go...
HAIZ~~~
Si beh bored jor de lo..
Wat can I do???
I already cant sleep at night for 8 day jor...
When is the day i will faint off le??? OMG.... wait die jor la..
No work , no money , no class , no study , no class , no game , no fun , no girl , no partner ....
sien sei jor la de la... like punya barang...
I think i stop loving people becoz people have the one she love but I behind still support her de
I know she need a fren tat support her , i know is not me but i willing to be the back up fren when she is in prob...
May be is innocent for me to do tat but nvm la... make sure she happy ba..haha
Happiness is giving by one people if the one of them wish to give happiness to each other..
LOVE for me is mean Like ,Others ,Vit , Eternity...
A bit cacat de la but as long I understand ma..haha
She told me a lot about her prob and I feel very bad becoz she still young and start to have all this kind of problem...
Haiz although we have the same prob before but may be i more lucky then her and solve it early...
It give me a kind of energy to pity her and not to love her deep...
I feel tat i should be the one who support behnd her and not to love on her jor..
From tat moment, I feel tat , I should be the best fren ba...
Cant be couple but can be best fren de..hahahaha
I think is a best way for myself to lupa dia..haha
Ok la.. update tonight...byebye

I saw ur blog..

I am totally understand wat u are writing about me in ur blog..
I wan to say thank you tat u write out all the feeling  about urself toward me..
We together tat time i think u already know tat time i was working and i am totally facing a lot of prob..
Did u ever cAre a bout my feeling tat time..
I wan to tell u tat i am totally not playing u when i be wit u...
I am the one should be scare on u becoz the way u treat me...
If i play u , why should i intro u to all my fren , why should i ask u for dinner wit my family , telling u so much about me , keep on date u out , bring u out to anywhere and different place tat u din when before..
U feel tat i am play u tat is fine for me becoz I knw u hating me...
Yea may be i know tat u feel tat i am not a good bf for u once but tat are not totally my prob..
I facing a lot of challenge and prob and where are u tat time????
I have family prob and tat time wat u doing???
I look for u and u are not wit me have u ever feel how i feel????
I have date wit fren also bring u go do u ever thing tat i will left u alone and betray u????
Do u think of my behalf???? dont you??
I found someone i like but unfortune i cant have her , I know there are many prob happening between all of us..
If i wanted to play , should i be so serious on something for her ?? so i care so much??? Why i don take my time go look for other girl and left her aside??
Becoz i know tat she is facing prob , stress and no one is standing beisde and care her..
I know I cant have anything wit her but I still treat people as fren..
I not don wan be fren wit u but how the atitude u are?? saying something tat come out wit bone???
Making people wan to give off the way and let u be the winner....
Do u think of other people feeling at all... U say 1 and i think dey won dare to say 2 becoz ppl don wan u to get hurt u know???
Try to reflact ur own attitude and see....
when we together , u think me lying u.. ok fine... I just take it if u feel so...u feel tat i not true in u , ok fine i take it...
I was trying to give people happiness and u are the one who is super SMALL GAS on it becoz u have hateness on me...
I won apologise to u by saying all this becoz u are the one who at behind doing the small action...
I like someone and do wat to someone is none of ur business at all and u make ur fren ownself don wan to tell u the truth...
PLS think of urself ba...
Thank you for informing me all tat...

DONO wat i am thinking...

Hmmm sudah many thing has happen upon me lo...
I also dono who am myself now???
I feel like keep on wanted to earn money and use it happily...
This feel day thinking a lot of thing , the time is passing very slow and i feel tat i am lost..
OMG I am lost??? huh...
Wat happen...
may be i to tired for this few day roadshow...
Tomorrow i have  roadshow at damansara but it end at six...hehezz
PHew...Very tired jor me...Why my brain cant stop thinking on it...
I make the best choice take people as a fren and i shouldnt think anymore but may be need time la.. halo...
Erm i read a mail telling me tat something tat make me wake up..
I feel tat is telling me the right thing and wat should i do..
But man..
can u speed up de time..I don wan to think so much lo...
Very suffering de lo..wan work den unfocus , drive den unfocus, even eat also ...OMG..
don talk it..
today i saw a little indian boy so kesian...
He go up to the stage and dare not to step on the stair and come down..
Is just around 2 step only..even a little girl can jump..
I think he to afraid of getting falling but he is big enough to walk jump everything..
His dad is totally angry of him becoz dare not to walk down the stair...
I think his father wan him to be independent ba...
The DJ and me are keep on looking at him and the DJ say a words " menaik tangga dono wat merupakan kejayaan wat wat wat la...haha"
Ok his father getting fed up and wan to use the chair or a wood becoz i saw him wan to take already..
haiz seeing the boy so kesian the DJ walk over to teach him and help him out by giving him confident..
Phew at last he walk slowly come down and when home..
From tat point start , I think of sometihng , from tat point start , everything u don try u dono wat will happen so from tat start i feel tat everything i have to try on it but need to base on positive side la..
I won take  DRUG one...haha
So lazy to write a... found a ticket ,,, is on my birthday tat night watch de movie ticket...haha
So happy i saw it but a bit miss about tat day..haha but nvm...
One day i will be more happy...haha

At last..Tan leng kiat... U sudah bangun from it...hehehehe

Halo everyone...

is me again...haha

So wuliao write all this...

Why today my title is this le becoz I have wake up from something tat has be fix..

This morning is been a happy day for me becoz certain reason la..

If check back my blog i think un de..haha

go shopping , eat ice cream , go book stor read kids book , cinema wtch movie an makan...haha

Since quite a long time i din been such happy as today..haha

I deeply in love wit the girl

I dono why i will get jealous of something and not happy..haha

but is okay...haha

I don wan to hide.. telling u guy tat i like her becoz this is wat i feel on..

I totally wan to serious in this relationship becoz it been a long time my heart been blank out...

I feel tat may be my chance is coming for me already..

But everything is just a dream...

People haven bf , people have good reason why don choose me,

people afraid that her side mean her fren have prob...hmmm

Ok i totally upset and feel like crying for one girl tat i like..

Oh MAN~~ I wanted to cry becoz of someone i love and she don love???haha

Yea tat true...haha

nothing i can say i feel so sorrow at the night i feel tat i heart sudah hilang..

I at the toilet bath tat time i really feel like let the water fill me up ba..

But not...

I think of sharing wit someone tat is ranson and my kai jie sandy...

Hmmm they help me out make me thinking getting better and wake up from the illusion jor..

I feel tat eveything is cannot been force de so just let it be..

I run out ask my fren to accompany me go to old town and have a drink..

I wan so moody tat time but these 3 funky and  crazy fren

Lek wai , han ren and chun seng

bring me back to the world jor...haha How come??

we talk a lot of joke , rubbish teasing each other and lastly they make me feel better...

Hmmm when go back ,,,

I plug in my pendrive and hear pitbull song..

Haha..Thank to the song becoz make me feel happy

and

I sang a song tat name "Ur memoris are not my memoris"

Pronouns is cantonese den u know de la..haha

Phew i now feel tat everything is fine..FOR ME..

I send her a message checking wit her and i don feel anything..

May be i drop jor... be fren ba..haha

So tonight have a good sleep and tomorow go for work agian..haha

Meet me at opposite leisure mall...

there got a phone fair..haha

Ok la..bb