Is has bad feeling toward it...

Hmmm recently many things happen..
Many small argument or fight..
becoz of certain den we can start to fight..
I try to avoid and be what I can ,
but is still problem there...
Last night had a argument..
She lastly post up wat I say toward her..
Hurm~~~
She scold me before on what I write in previous ,
but she end up post as well..
I feel that I am moody and sad ...
I feel sorry toward her 
but
she start to ignore it..
her blog even written that,
cant 2 group out..
either me or them..
I feel that ,
is that what my gf should said??
Haiz..Just feel different and dislike..
today fight again about a phone..
some time she din really think about me..
We be dated for tomorrow dates,
but
she suddenly told me she could
FFK me and go for her blackberry phone..
I was freaking upset and I don feel good..
Is that phone are much more important than our date??
she may be dono tomorrow is 24 of april..
the 4 month we are being together..
Did she ever feel what is my feeling and thinking..
hurm!!!
is she so forgetful , or don't about it??
Haiz , I feel freaking sad now...
why she keep on forget think of my behalf..
what I did is wrong???
What I think for her is wrong??
or I shouldn't do all this to her???
I am alway ready be wit her when she had problem and sad,
but she din even tell me and don wan to share wit me..
Am I so no value to share wit??
Or am I not the person should ask and know??
Hmmm...
I am there alway so that she won being left out ,
but I think what is extra..
she have her family and fren..
may be doesn't need me..
can she just simply and easy toward me....
I am blank and no idea about what is going on...
I don dare to ask becoz , I got scolded just now..
I dono wat is it , and she just cut off my line..
Is already twice she doing that..
yea , she have the right to do so...
I cant say anything even though i am sad n dislike it...
fine!~ I don wish to get more upset...
just calm down myself and sit alone at my room...
remain the silence~~~~

U don understand Or I don get it??

Sometime feel that there are many thing I will miswrap..

She or me dono wat we wan 

or

I am creating problem??

I start to feel that some time we are totally blur

on

wat is happen toward a situation..

OH man...

Am I to stress or am I mad???

I dono why I some time feel she 

doesnt care or take it seriously 

but sometime she tell me , she do so...

So wat actually is going on?

She don understand or I don understand??

haiz..

everytime when dicussing ,

then she left , becoz is a fucking timing..

tat is mid night when wan to sleep....

take it easy bro , 

I know I could be better  becoz I must keep improve..

so work hard and time to sleep..

good nitez...

lazy to argue or discuss..

just let it be~~~~~

Is tired and annoying...

So damn long I din update..
and now is time..
hehe
Working for 2 week more..
I found out tat work as sales for credit card is not easy...
I don get much sales nowadays..
Is tough le..Hmmm
I am so so tired and stress nowaday..
exam is around the corner and start getting more stress...
not only study , my usage on money are much too..
I have to save up and learn to more saving jor..
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Hmmm recently many things start happen..
although there are lot of space to improve,
but dono why I keep of angry of myself..
I will start to fat lan za toward myself...
I don really can stand much..
hmmm...
Finally argument slowly come ...
I actually can stand it but is to over...
the same problem came again..
alway say different thing and do different things again..
I feel tat u should be more responsible de ma..
Don alway like play har play har and dono wat happening..
Sometime is to over jor...
think the effect and causes ma...hmmm
Not I wanted to scold ,
but pls be responsible on wat u are talking about...
don be tat kind of bad attitude...
i know u wan freedom , i ok wit that
but u also have to know wat to do and how to do...
don alway wan ppl remind or say...
Okay...i did extra work and lebih..
care u and worried u is wrong one...
i shouldnt do that...
I am lebih jor...
sorry lo.. okay..from today onward,
u like wat , how or anything I also won care...
that is.. i no comment and speechless...