Hmmm dream dream dream!!!

I never have a dream wish come true!!
Recently there are problem in my family again...
My sister need a lot money for her sickness
But my dad business got problem..
my mom going to stop working!!
am Me now is non working!
sei lo....
Please la..
Why cant just le enjoy my young tme!!
I very san fu jor a!!
I no income ,
den no one care already,
family facing financial prob,
haiz study not really good ,
Problem wit some college mate!
haiz...
Why every year or everytime also got problem de~~
Hmmm
can just fullfill me just dream!
I lost my time , I lost my family time
I lost my girl fren , I lost my work
and I lost everything..
Hmmm love , money , trust!!!
In my dream i have everything
but
when reality , apa also don have~~
Ya !! is true there are people better den me..
i admit , but I tell myself I won lost!!!
I must work hard and study hard..
Play is must but seldom now...
Tomorrow go travel ,
but not feeling excited at all..
hope reach there will be better ba!!!
Alright after come back , i must be more aggresive ~~
I have send a resume to a company , hope they accept me...
Go Go Go....
I must make it dream come true!!

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Let talk about my fren..
recently , there are like war!!!
she shoot him ,
he shoot her ,
den another she shoot him ,
den all shoot here and there..
Haiz bro,
come on la... give it up la..
People leave us sure got reason de..
forcing alos no use la..
just belive our life ba...
Hmmm
now still young ,
there are time la..
Let time prove everything ba...hehe
Wish her , him and her good luck
and ALL THE BEST!!!...
(ex) don over cross on some people matter!
Although we see till not happy,
but they could solve it...
Don say about people ,
so that people don hav chance to say back!!
be ourself is de save and right way!!
hope u know wat i mean...take care~~
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I went to fetch my mom from work...
haiz..
She tell me alot of thing..
ask me to study wat I wan and work hard..
Don be a worker ,
but must learn from work...
After learn only decide to do wat..
Example like boss or anything...
I think of open a PR company..
but are that really work???
Hmmm
Thinking of it!! if really work den that good..
So i have to think properly about wat is my future...
go for it and work hard!!
My mom tell me ,
Now i enough for myself,
but if u have a wife or son how??
sure not enough..
May be wat she say is no meaning..
but after this words she tell me..
I finally think of..
dating or not is not important right now!!
Think something useful better ba..
When i am steady and sucess
I think that time I only think about it!
dono when is it i will sucess
but i belive I will sucess one day!~~

Hmmm okay fine!!

Wao since u had write till like tat....
sudah tak ada comment lo...
hehehehe!!
Thank u for being cruel that break my heart~~
Hmmm
I think i should wake up lo...
people no interest in here already why still wan wait!!
wait wat shit la!!
hahahahaha....
As long everyone is happy den can lo...
After this story from here i finally wake!!
hehehehehe
suan la... wait also not allow...
so just continues ba...
hahahahaha i recently mix some new fren..
thanks for concern about me..
i am fine now!! really~~
Recover already...hahahaha
Alright ,
chinese new year is near..haha
Let come celebrate man!! hahahaha
Err this fri I going to PD lo..
Hope is a nice trip man..!!
Next week go genting wit few classmate..
hope is nice to..
actually is volleyball fren ,
but some cannot so we change to after cny only go..
OMG!!
go so many time..sien de la...haha
Ok!!
I must go travel alot..
March or May must go Redang!!
Find girl at there..haha..
no la...!!
sei bryan... keep on teach me be Fa Fit!!
sei zai bao a...
just now have nice tea wit liz teng , bryan and shaun..
Thanks for the joke and crap..
appreciate so much...haha!!
I am mr Banana la la zai!! haha
Lastly to say is!!
I FINISH EXAM LO!!!!!
yeahooo~~~hahaha

Alright!! pass is pass so Now is NaW!!!

Hmmm At last i understand and know it~~
haha!!
Okay past is past and now is NaW!!
De past has leave , i finally is new!
hmmm
forget it le lo , I don wan blur jor!!
CNY is here and tomorrow is my last exam!
I have to change and be more playful~~
In this world if i still don play den I will be sorry..
So let hang out and enjoy it~~
Before that something is keep on stopping me..
I alway hear my heart to do and my feeling to follow
But
NAW~~ bybye!
since they day end up my part,
I am the another man!!!
Forcing and misunderstanding is causing other in trouble,
I finally understand wat u are and wat u wan!
Ok from this minutes 7.27pm start!!!
We have no linkage and I won do anything like last time..
We are just a "friend" only!!
So....
we are walking de different ways...haha
I won care about wat u did and as well u to me!!
Once a fren alway a fren....
From now , i would straight to everyone!!
I willing to help but see is it worth it or not!
I would think before I action~~
try to belive in someone lo!!
I must be a Hou yan!! hahahahahaha
Alrigh end here!! will update soon...byez

Mix and match story!!

Haiz.....
Everything the first thing I wan to write blog ,
My brain will ask me to say "haiz" first..
I have to much problem and stress already..
Think back turn back to see....
I have many unhappy pass...
I don understand at all...Hmmm~~
My family , my fren , financial and lastly my girl..
family is settle ,
fren is normal ,
financial is okay
but girl fren is zero !!
haha!!
I am just 19 okay..
Many chance but no choice ..
I nge nge wan to chase back a..
ahahaha!! blow a~~
Wee
err I dono wat happen to me..
to sot jor...haha
yesterday I go pinch back my ear hole again..
oMg..
I am lala again...Not la actually!!
I wan to be a cool and handsome de "fei chai"...haha
So bought a diamond ear ring and wait to change..
Hmm left few shirt to buy and lastly
I wan to dye my hair!! hahahaha
I wan to make it Red ma!!
Red hot boy!!
Mr banana Red boy...woohooo
Oh ya
i went to watch tiger woohoo..
is kinda funny...hahaha
I wit my 3 brother pergi..
We are crazy enough.. we together buy polo t shirt..haha
I bought pink ,
keong bought green,
jack bought blue,
and Ren bought light pink..haha
OMG!!
Really sot jor...hahahahaha
Hmmm I finally transform to new richy guy jor..
I have to care my imej and have to life like prince..Haha!!

24th of january~~

24 of every month is very meaningful for me..
but how much meaning is it also turn up nothing...
hehehehe~~

Alright , plan and think a lot alos end up blank..
Why don we happily eenjoy everyday le???
Today is my shopping day...
My partner for today is my company accountant..
Madeline Chow!!
We are date to go for mid valley ,
but I reach there is totally full..
so we turn to sunway..
but when I almost reach ,
Is totally jam!!
OMG~~
So no choice ,
We got to go TIME SQUARE...hehe
I never truthly follow a girl go shopping..
I at last realise that why girl need to shop so long..
At last I understand...
Dey keep on do research and think before they buy..
Although is tough for the whole day but I learn something..
is my Patience!!
I din complain and just follow her go here and there..
I must learn to be more patience so I can go shop wit my future gf..
Mostly of girl don like guy to follow becoz they know guy are inpatience...
but dono why , I today can do it...
I shop for around 5 five hours ,
Go up and down , try here and there...
Around 6 , is time for me to buy...hahahaha
I shop so long i just bought a short pant...
hmmm is kinda nice becoz from her comment...haha
first time get comment from girl when i buy pant...
normally is my family only!!hahahaha
Is really tired becoz my leg is getting pain and cramp..
but I totally enjoy the day becoz I can learn alot..
how to see a girl choose and pick..
Is totally lot to learn...
I start to feel I like to go shopping wit girls...
becoz train my patience and help me to think and considere...
train my taste and teach me mix and match!!
Wao that nice...
Somemore one thing tat is can learn to be gentlemen...haha
She bought a lot so I have to take for her..
GRR!!!
No choice la , cant find partner out , so have to help her...haha
Anyway , a nice day today although there are some sad memoris..
but gone soon and enjoy shop today...
Phew!!
i am so tired la , my leg are cramp and tired..
but I learn a lot... shop wit girl is nice and I like it...hahahaha
hope to have chance wit someone i like or frenzz
haha

Sad but is memoris...

Hmmm
Sei jor... why everywhere I go...
I keep on tell me the memoris we had..
The place I eat , the place I drink ,
The place I sleep , The time I drive...
It remind me in the cinema
It remind me at the restaurant
It remind me at the car
It remind me at the Mc donald
It remind me at the cafe
It remind me when I am get saman
It remind me when we go travel
It remind me when we eat together
It remind me when we chit chat
It remind me alot more...
but everything has to end...
HAIZ~~~~~
Why this world so many sad case le??
Becoz of to clever jor...hahahaha...
There are no more hope and tomorrow
since de moment being rejected...

Suffer suffer suffer~~~

Yesterday i go work wit my father..
My uncle sick so I have to replace..
Hmmm
It been 6 years i din follow my dad go to work...
hmm everything has change lot..
The customer are getting lesser
and the income are less too..
May be this is wat people life are ba....
I dream on something last night...
Haiz....
SO i have to work hard ba..
I feel that without money i am nothing..
So I have to work hard to find money...
Now wat I see is Wey ru and her bf...
They are seperate already...
Why!! why they got chance don appreciate le...
Hmmm...
I am sad when seeing such situation...
I am being fate no chance but they have..
Why dey wan to do it??? why wo...
I wan also don have...
I start feel that I no gf wit me i am alone...
I start feel she is my part and parcel...
Stop fooling around and wan to serious...
but~ end nothing...haiz...
Why why why!!!
Why she can think more on positive side wo ...
settle her side and recover wit my side...
I alos don wan anything....
I am totally through and through on her..
This time I am in deep shit...
This few night I dream alot ~~
But everything is just a dream to me only...
haiz... single single!!
Why can let me in couple wit T.O.I.L!!
hmmm
chinese new year is around...
I wan to cat my room jor...
since tomorrow nothing to do den i have to do...
Till now also no positive before..
WTF!!! hahahahahahaha...
just trying to divert my sad feeling only..
actually I am not happy at all...
SAD~

Everything look fine~~

Hmmm ...
Today I din go out oh...
SOBSOB~~
all kaki suddenly not free a..
whole say sit at home...
really sien lo...
Haiz...
Think of buying new phone le...hehehehehe
just wait chance ba...
Alright coming 4 day is 24...
hmm actually is an annivessary de ,
but unfortunatly,
I don have the chance to celebrate le...hmmm
Nvm~~~
Nowaday look ok jor...
We are like fren chatting and look like be back fren...
We can joke and talks..
I though we cant be fren and nothing to chat..
but is keep on changing now..
dono face to face can talk or not..
sei jor..
but nvm...
got chance only try la..
hahahaha..TRY~~
Like this ,
Mean that I start to recover le ba....
hmmmm
Don think so much jor la...
happy and enjoy is de most important right now!!\
Hmm wit her de story...
Got fate only think how lo..
now still got 2 paper only le..
I am damn happy...
yea!! can go holiday and gai gai jor..
although CNY no place go ..
but can go shopping de ma...hehehehehe
Ok la...
end here.... recovering soon...hahaha

I am to mad...sot sot dei jor...

Today mms paper ...
is totally mad... I dono some of it..
Sei jor..
i am afraid...
Today eat bak gut teh wit keong ren and keong zai..
Wao..
We eat alot and cost 70 ringgit...hahahahahahaha
to expensive le ba...
but full till vomit le lo..haha
hmmm just now go yam cha that time..
I wit jack and ren already crazy super sot..
We keep on tlak crap , teasing
and laugh till like hell...
Oh man..
I been so long din luagh till so crazy  and happy jor..haha
Hmmm
Sei wey ru , everytime see me den say me
Say my face very 'jie' and like vampire..
halo , this is call study till not enough sleep okay!!
Me is good student lai de...hahahaha
Hmmm don thinks other and think coming...hahahahaha
Oldsong name 21guns are nice to..
Hear it and enjoy...hehe
oh ya!!
I wan to go shopping tomorrow ,
buy shirt , see car , jalan jalan and wait finish my exam
and I can goHOLIDAY~~~
Yeah ho.....hahahahahaha
SOT JOR!!

Hmmm Need more time lo~~

Is already few day....
Still cannot forget or give up???
Hmmm
My fren keep on teasing me everyday..
Halo..
Totally malu la if like tat...
Hmmm
today when to UCSI attend their class..
Is totally different from my college..
there is jst like u got money ,
U can do anything...
hahahahaha..
After that , evening I decide to go low yat..
Go wit ren and jack...
Wao...
Ren take my photo key chain ..
Is my photo and hers..
He take it and throw far far..
scolding me that pass den let it pass...
I feel like scold him from doing that..
But lastly I just ignore becoz
I don wan to think about pass...
is not in good feeling but still have to shop..
WAO>>>
I can use money already...hehe
I wan to buy a phone le..
but I do jor few hour survey also no phone for me to buy...
hmmm!!
so boring de lo...

My mind is still in her...
Wat happen to me...
Sudah "BEBERAPA" day jor...
Still cannot give up or is just not happy????
Everytime talks about my pass ,
My fren will scold...
haiz...
pls la... I sudah biasa ma...
alway talk my gf so susah wan forget de...hahahaha
no choice , people to many disadvantages
let me show of....hahahaha
I today also dono wat I talking about...haha
Good nitez ba...hehe
tomorrow got mms exam..
Good luck to everyone...haha

"LUCKY"... by JasOn MrAz and CoLbie caiLLat...

The first time I heard this song ,
I feel that is a happy and sweet songs.
It bring me to a wonderful dating life ,
although I end up just like that ,
but this nice song is bring up by her ....
Thanks a lot ...
Once we are best fren and couple....
So this song is totally nice for us...
Althought we are nothing right now...
but Wish there there are a HOPE for us~~
Wish You and Me all the best!~~

(Lyrics)>>
Do you hear me?

I'm talking to you
Across the water
Across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky
Oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you, I promise you I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through the trees
Move so pretty, you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now


Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohhohhohhohh

The day of 14 January 2010...

This is the day that is no longer be a happy day~~
At last I am understand about everything...
I am the one which is being give up away...
few day ago I know that by giving each other time
and work more harder ,
there are a solution that can be together...
yesterday I book her for half and hour to dicsuss
but I din appear becoz last night my fren told me alot ...
At last I understand and I know I should let her breath...
Let her process everything and balance back everything..
but Wat I know is everything is already end since early...
We had a short conversation just now and she told me everything...
She is actually not that much feeling on me only...
no matter how hard i work on it ,
End with the same thing...
She still have to leave me....
haiz... She tell some lies to me...
but I cant totally blame her...
Now wan to blame wat also cant...
Thanks for she willing to tell the truth today
and not in future....
As wat she said , short term better den long term sadness...
I totally cannot accept the real fact
but!
nothing I can do and say anymore...
What I can do now is just wish she all the best ,
study for herself and most important TAKE CARE~~
Hmmm
Hope from that minutes we stop the conversation...
There are no one like me so annoying disturb her everytime,
causing her problem , make her stressful and sad...
I am sorry for I am being a good boy fren ...
But this word I dare not to tell her by my mouth
becoz~
I feel that wat ever I say to her ,
i think is already just a craps...
I am to serious on someone again !!
What I have is just some sweet , nice and crazy memoris...
everything is keep inside and wat I can display here for memoris,
is one Of our together photo..

Haiz~~

being fren or not is not important anymore

is just that when we face each other..

i think we are new to each other...

PHEW~~

Is a sad day for me...

I should sense it early becoz few day ago

she is being cool to me ,

but never mind , at last everyting is clean and clear...

we seperated very peachfully and we din argue anything...
Although is me the one which unacceptable,
but I still have to respect her decision...
Everything is being fate!! may be I am not the Mr Right for her...
Hmmm
New year is coming,
so I have to study hard for exam,
after exam go trip to put down everything ,
go buy my new year red polo t-shirt,
and I have to work study and study hard...
Future will be moer brigther it do my jobs...
Hope can be more optimun and positive ba..
jia you Jia you~~

The end~~

Phew~~
I came to single again...
Oh!!
I could not accept the truth ...
My heart are painful and it push my tears out from my eye...
I am deeply injuried now...
I feel that if te day i saw her ,
I would cry out in front of it and left...
I just feel like stop doing everything and go away now!!
The moment i knew it ,
I just like being puck by a knife deeply into my heart...
Keep on bleeding non-stop~~
My brain gone blank and I am speechless...
Alway think that being good and nice
but lastly end up something that hurt deepy..
cry out tonight and tomorrow is a new day for me....
As wat i been promise before ,
After this girl , I wouls stop chasing others
but, end up nothing and I think is time to stop...
Put so much effort and feeling on it
to be the best ....
but don expect it turn into like this..
PLS WAKE UP TAN LENG KIAT!!!!
The memoris we had the joy we had
is now a past to me.....
I dono how much we love each other
and we are trying to take care each other
but now everything is turning to asch...
Thank you for being all this to me ,
caring , concern , playful and others
Wish u live happily and be more mature on think...
Don alway go out late and stop argue wit ur family anymore...

Too craziiii ...... hehe

Yesterday I have did something unexpected...haha
Yesterday morning run to fetch my girl ,
Then rush to my office to buy battery and photostep some notez...
AFter that ,
I went to my ex working pub to have lunch..
After lunch ,
I am to crazy that decide to go genting ...
It start from 3 pm sit bus to genting..
and come sit back the bus on 530 pm...haha
Oh my god..
Crazy man..
We reach there 4 something , snap some photo 
take some wind and then go home...haha
To sot jor~!!!!.....
At the cable car, and uncle and aunty sit beside me
and 1 indian family sit behind us..
Oh my ....His father was keep on moving here and there..
Come on man... pls~~~!!
sit steady la...I am afraid we would drop from the moutain la..
Haiyo..
The aunty keep on scold the indian guy...haha
That time everyone was keep quite and go through it..
My girl seat quietly all along the trip...hmmmhaha
After that , On the way home,
I almost beng on a police car and I get saman...
come on man,
It was not my wrong but I forgotten to bring my Ic...
So no choice ,,,,,
just bayar rasuah only ba...Rm 40 ringgit...hmmm
suan le ba..
At night ~~
I went to neway karaoke wit my colleague ..
It wat steven and elaine birthday...haha
we sing song and suddenly change the atmostphere into clubbing..
putting all the RnB song and I am the DJ of the night....haha...

Not having good feeling and kinda moody...

Haiz!!
Being force to write sad story again..
I realise that someone is actually not beliving in me..
I try to be better and change from the past and be more different..
but ~~
They heard some bad pass about me and forever judge me wit the same concept..
Haiz..
I am freaking not in good mood now...
Why you can think me is such a person...
I hate all this becoz U are not belive in me ..
Alway think that I would do this and that...
If don belive in me...
Why we wan to know each others...
Why we wan to talk to each others
and why wan to pretend on me...
Pls...
I hate the feeling pass on me and
Dey thing I heard from u....
OKAY~~
since not beliving in me..
Just take me is a bad guy, prevert , killer , maniac , cruel , and others la..
I feel like stop communicate wit you becoz
u are the one 1 belive the most
but u let me know tat U are not beliving in me at all...
haiz....Fine~~
just let it be ba~~~~

What I realise when I heard the comment ......

Wao~~ it been a long time that I not updating my blog...hehe
HOHOHOHO~~
Many things has happen again.
I am in an relationship now but is that a good matters???
Wat I know is , I am going to left down my old concept
and carry out my life wit new concept..
as a famous STARS say , use the key hole to see the world
and bla~~~
That really bring me into a new world when I open up the door to see world.
wat I see last time throw the key hole are small
but when I open up the door to see the world,
Everything bring me different and every moment brings me a moment.
That the time I am start to change my attitude....
As wat I had promise before ,
If I am in a relationship , I hope is a long term for me
and even hope is the last one for me...
I feel not to have anymore gf and just the only one...
Put down the past and start everything freshly...
Think onward positive and throw down the old concept.
Hmmm~~
This years I am 19 ,
so I should be grown up to be a man...
Shouldnt think like small boy but can act like litle kidz....hahahahahaha
Hmmm exam is around the corner,
I have to start study..
I don wish to have a really good result either fail,
but I just wan tat I have everytthing pass through
and get my diploma...
Having a cert and wearing a square hat
snapping photo wit my family is something i wish to do so..
Even hope to graduate wit my fren along....
wat I really wan to say is
Thanks to my PARENT for woking hard on me..
and even to the LORD in the sky looking at us..
before that I wouls blame him/her for giving me such path life ,
but when i waken up , i feel that this is wat life mean..
Everyone have different path and different difficulties...
SO~~
wat I wan to say is , work hard everyone ......
Nothing is impossible in this world...
Thanks to my family , my fren and my gf..
everyone is looking after me ,....
Thanks and Regards from (TAN LENG KIAT)
I love everyone exspecially my family and Gf....